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I’m shifting…=)

I’ve longed-for shifting my blog to somewhere else…as u know, friendster’s blog isn’t so user friendly & a little out-dated. But then…how could i juz leave it all of a sudden, rite???

So i told myself (& Wearn as well), i’m gonna change my blog after i’ve post 100 posts in Friendster, & i’ll then announce my shifting in the 101’s post.

So…this is the day!!! <This is my 101’s post here.> Yeah!!! I did it~~!!!

And therefore…I’m shifting to BLOGSPOT~
Remember to visit me there =)

So long my Friendster’s blog! :P

I love you all~!

Although it’s over, but i still wanna pay my highest gratitude to all of u, that made my day~!!! ;D

My lunar birthday
Firstly, thanks to debate class that celebrated my belated lunar & be-earliered birthday :P thanks for the super huge card, the green tea cake (though i dun fancy the "words" on cake >.<), & the "precious" tea packs…

Special thanks to FangZhe that made me red eggies, that’s the most important element during lunar birthday. Well, u successfully dyed the eggs into red!!! Oh ya, and thanks for the present, too~ ;)

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- FangZhe, XinYou, YuBin, EnZheng, JingYu, ShaoYang, JiaJin -
- SiMoN, ZhenLong, YaoZong, Terry, Me, TengGuang, Richard - 
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ZhiWei, Freddy -
- Alan, JunHui, YanLing, HuiLing -
Not forget also about ZhiRen, although u din attend ;)

And then…i went back to Kuantan for CNY~

My Birthday
One day bfore my bday, i was hanging around with my superb best but yet cacat friends in hometown, they lied to buy me presents. And i usually let them lie, bcoz i wanted to receive presents from them, hahaha…

So this is wat i got~ (okay i know we acted stupid~!)
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- YengYan, Me, Yizi, & Lexi -

Thanks for the every single present inside the big box. I swear i neva follow u all to the shopping mall although i knew every single story behind each presents, i juz knew them, ok??? And Kei Kei, thanks for ur wishes, we all miss u here!!! *muaks*

As usual, we went to dinner. We actually made a reservation in a Japanese restaurant, but….we’re late!!! And our reservation was cancelled!!! T_T After rounding the whole kuantan, we ended up in Crocodile Rock. Thanks to yengyan’s mummy provided us a really nice white wine =)

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- See Yizi’s c-tu-pid face :P -

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- Gluttonousness -

I’m a little lost bcoz Kei Kei u’re not with us~ :(

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And finally, it’s my birthday!!! Juz had a simple steamboat dinner with my beloved family, felt i’m the little girl of my family again…

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- JieJie, Mummy, Little girl, Daddy, GorGor & his gf -

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- Little girl & little Olive -

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- Getting older… -

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Of course, i did receive ALOT of birthday wishes thru SMS, phone callings, friendster & also facebook msgs. Thanks thanks thanks…And also SORRIE~~, i know i din reply all of u all. So i made a long thank you list here… I really appreciate every wishes from u all, really…

Gerelynn, Nagentheran, SooYee, Anzy, Connie, YiJun, LiChuan, Maggie, Jocelyne, Yazmeen, KeiKei, Ykit, FangZhe, KwaiSang, Daryl, KianSong, TongJiann, ZhongChuen, Devin, SiMoN, Barathan, David, ShaoYang, Shangeetha, PangKai, LiSin, YeeYang, PeiSing, HuiLing, Alan, YoongWearn, TzerHaur, FenixKJ   

Bday

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And i found out this…
Blog
A blog for me!!!

Seriously…i was really overwhelmed…until dunno how to express myself. (tears almost cry out :P) It’s great to hear from u that the letter & little mouse arrived ur place safely, really hope u like it… Wat should i say, i’m really really really very happy & proud & lucky &…so much more to hav such a great fren like u. DO take care ok? *hugs*

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U all think all these end??? Not that soon, ONE more to go~~~

After i had my long sweet CNY holiday & back to school, we went to celebrate LiSin’s Birthday. Wat i din expect is…they actually celebrated for both of us. Thanks again, i had fun & great time with u guys =)

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- It was confidential wor… (so ba bai) -

I bought a present for LiSin, she & yang also bought me a present. Well, i’m wondering…our heart connected aar? Both aquarius bought the present from the same shop, n the same flavor of product? Haha…

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- Me & LiSin with our presents -

Finally…the celebrations end here. =) I know this is a very very long blog, but forgive me bcoz i really need to thank one by one. Really LASTLY, BIG THANKS again to my beloved family & friends. I’d always wanna say, because of u all, i worth my life :D

I love you all!!! *muuuuuuuuaks*

 

I’m a qualified voter!!!

Dang dang~~~

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So…i’m coming back on the 8th of March for voting. Kinda excited now, although i dunno who are the candidates -.-|||

I’m gonna VOTE~!!! :D

曾经的心结
曾经的梦魇
原来早已经离我而去
而我
犹不自知地作茧自缚

 
突然间
一切变得那么清晰可明

 
快让自己窒息的理由
竟然
源自于对自己的厌恶

 
看清自己竟然比蒙蔽自己
更难接受
呵…

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回归

我想,我是个很容易让人担心的人。我所遭遇的事更别人不会有太多差别,但不知道为什么?或许是体型关系、或许是性格关系,我总是让身边的人多了一份牵挂…

单纯地跟我聊天就好了。不要问我近况怎么样?这样的问题,我想我还不怎么会回答,才能准确地表达出心的感受。担心我的人,总是知道我有能力去跨越,但还是会担心,只是因为很不舍…

我想,我慢慢地好起来了。不要问我为什么?我也不知道。也许,时间真的是所有看不见伤口的解药。虽然,我仍然存在着很多不确定性。我以为我变得更坚强了,但就在下一刻,却又发现我所能承受的比自己想象的还少。但…好转就像是低梯度上升的直线,缓慢但却持续增长着。

人长得越大,就越有将事情复杂化的能力;总是让自己陷入一堆的牛角尖里,还苦恼着没有出路。小孩为什么总是让大人们羡慕?因为他们拥有着最诚实,最单纯的心灵。开心就笑,难过就哭;喜欢就一定要有,不喜欢怎么逼也没有用…

所以,诚实地面对自己吧。不要一直逼自己成为什么样的人,因为不是封闭式的催眠自己,我们就可以变成想象中的那个人的。

所以,随心过最简单的生活吧。真的去倾听最深处的自己,它才是真正了解你的人。少了外面的纸醉金迷,纷纷扰扰…最平凡的,却可以是最幸福的。

所以,返璞归真吧…

出轨

妈妈多年的好友,惊觉自己的丈夫两年在外金屋藏娇。于是女人之间的谈话开始了,感慨着自己的经历,诉说着听来的传闻。那位阿姨至今依然谈笑风生,只是言语间隐隐透露了伤痛,憎恨与不能相信。女人总是这样的,相信着哪会有不偷腥的猫呢?却永远不会相信那只猫就是自己的枕边人。或许不是不会相信,只是不肯相信罢了。

 
不久前才有了卫生部长的性爱光碟丑闻,响亮地巴掌大在一个个“好男人”脸上。据说部长夫人开口说她原谅丈夫的一切行为。有一位朋友跟我讨论时问我,如果我是他的妻子,我会做什么回应呢?我说我应该会选择离婚,因为原谅太难。朋友就说,可能念在那么多年的夫妻情份上,很多事情是可以被包容的。我不知道当我活到了那种岁数时,我会不会有那么大的容量?可是后来我告诉我的朋友,或许我会原谅出轨的政治丈夫,以一个家人的立场。因为我想,部长夫人的开口,只是不想落井下石而已吧!

 
妈妈和那位阿姨就一直说年轻的时候才会担心没有依靠,孩子没能力抚养;现在老了,孩子长大了,那还担心什么呢?言语的最后,还是愿意接纳丈夫,只是从此以后对他不再信任,还叨叨絮絮一定要丈夫遵守一些条约,并会时常查勤什么的。那么,是为了什么而接纳呢?我不明白。

 
我不明白,这样子的不信任,如何能够像从前般维系一个美满家庭呢?可能表面上是和谐圆满,但心底的那道伤口呢?那不再是纯粹夫妻之间的伤口,而是一个家庭的打击!这种弥漫着的阴影,真的值得吗?

 
或许我还太年轻,不了解和我共同生活几十年的人占了我生命多重要的部分。那种依赖和习惯,情感和归宿,或许不是一句不相信就可以磨灭的。或许这就是家人,总能接受及包容,不为什么,只是因为是一家人。只是很可悲吧?

应该

心情很糟糕,花了好一段时间还是很难抚平自己。脑子里有很多“我应该做”的事情浮现,可是跟我原先想象的又太不一样,有一点不是很快乐。

想起了电视剧中的一句,“你可不可以先取悦你自己,不要管别人呢?!

 
不是不可以,只是我会觉得自己太自私。不是每一次只顾着自己快乐,自己就真的会快乐的。有些时候,因为别人的感受和需要而做出的退让,让我的快乐更理所当然,让我的牺牲更找到定位。只是,“我应该做”的事情好象很多,而每一件事情也不见得获得其他人的谅解。这样的“应该”,是让我很不开心的。

 
我只是需要你们的一丁点支持和肯定而已,这么难吗?或许我选择过的人生跟你们以往的很不一样,但这样又表示你们的比我还要对吗?或许你们比我过得更轻松自在,但这样表示更有意义吗?或许我跟你们表达的方式不一样,但这表示我的付出远比你们还要少吗?一个人可以飞得更高,看得更远,不是因为他的梦想有多伟大,而是因为在背后总有强大且默默支持的后盾。我当然知道你们用尽你们的所有来爱我,可是,我也一样啊!只是,可不可以在言语上多一些些鼓励、多一些肯定呢?

 
因为你们是我最爱的人,所以你们总能轻易触碰到我最柔软的深处,因此只需轻轻的刺伤就会使我淌血;但也因为你们是我最爱的人,你们的宽容永远是我最坚强的城堡,无论在辛苦再难挨,我还是可以撑得过来

 
有没有想过,我们距离大家有多遥远了呢?

I’m supposing studying my last paper, but ended up talking
with 2 superb childish people. -.-|||

 
Below are the conversations:

 1st conversation
XXX: U said I disturb
u
XXX: <crying
face>
Me: I got say
meh???

XXX: I duwan fren
with u liao
XXX: wuwuwuwu
Me: U standard 1
aar?
Me: -.-|||

XXX: no
XXX: kinder garden
XXX: actually I “jia
jia” fren with u only
Me: ……
Me: downgrade
urself summore
Me: lolZ

XXX: coz I’m talking
to a baby
XXX: so need to make
myself younger to suit her
Me: baby???
XXX: u lor…
Me: $#@^&$&$#%#@&….

 

2nd  conversation
Me: I like cute
babies
Me: :D

YYY: haha u can hav 1
urself
YYY: who knows next
year also got dy
Me: ……
Me: choi~~~

YYY: y choi le
YYY: it’s not a bad
thing wat
YYY: who knows oni ma
Me: ……
Me: see…I’m single
now…
Me: then next yr
got baby???!!
Me: -.-

YYY: y not
YYY: u’re single now
YYY: tmr u r in a
relationship
YYY: after 9 months u
got baby dy
YYY: haha
Me: seems like u
so easily go into a relationship
Me: so tmrw will u
still be available?
Me: :P

YYY: eeeeyeeeerrrr…..debater
is so hard to pleased
Me: &$#&^@%$&*……


Okay…not gonna mention both the superb childish person in order to protect them from being mocked (no offensive) :P

Really gonna continue my study liao…my paper is at 3pm, now is already 12.50pm…

幸福和幸运

我很幸福,也很幸运,
因为我拥有很爱我的家人,很好的朋友;
因为我拥有很舒适的生活,健康的肢体;
因为我拥有很多别人没有或是没有办法拥有的事物;
因为拥有着这一份幸福及幸运,
所以我很尝试去珍惜我所拥有的,
也很感激所有所有让我感觉我拥有这么多的人

 
也因此,
在生活上遭遇的所有悲伤难过,
我总是告诉自己一定过得去的,
因为我是一个这么幸福的人啊!

 
也因此,
在生命里所经历的所有痛苦折磨,
我总是告诉自己我的这些都不算什么,
世上有更多更多的人在活着的每一秒钟争取存活下来的权利,
毕竟我是个很幸运的人,不是吗?

 
所以,
就算在我呼吸的每一刻,心都像撕裂开来一样痛;
就算在我若无其事地过着每一天,身体某一部分一直在抑制快断掉的紧绷;
却还是一直告诉自己,
这些都不算什么,一定过得去的

只要相信,
林欣怡,你很幸福,也很幸运

冬至快乐!

冬至是华人最重要的节日之一,我不是很清楚它的起源或传说是什么?只是知道每到了冬至,妈妈就会叫我帮忙搓汤圆,总是一搓就搓了整个晚上。那时觉得好玩,现在想起来却很怀念。

虽然今年没办法回家过冬至吃妈妈搓的汤圆;虽然去了3家霸级市场也找不到糯米粉(这里不卖糯米粉的吗?!!! -.-) ;但是,无鱼虾也好(这是一句福建俚语)的心态之下,买了现成的汤圆回家煮,过节嘛!但是,味道就……将就一些咯~

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那是我的汤圆,在一棵圣诞树前面。

一个是东方很重要的节日,另一个则是西方的大日子。
对于我来说,两者都带来了同样温暖的意义。
冬至和圣诞,给我的感觉象是,就算外面的雪有多么寒冷,风有多么刺骨;回到家中,总有暖暖的汤圆或是炉火,还有总是挡风遮雨的家人。
=)

吃了汤圆,表示长大一岁了!
以前有过不去的,现在学习跨过去吧!
在温暖的季节里,要有一颗懂得感恩的心;因为懂得感恩,才可以放下。
冬至快乐!
;)

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